How Instagram helped my depression

To be honest, I thought social media (especially Instagram) was bad for a person's wellbeing. I read the articles on how it lowered self-esteem, created anxiety, and increased depression. They said it was because of looking at the overly perfected highlight reel of someone's life can cause anguish at our own imperfect, and not always glistening lives. These reasons kept me away from social media with wrongful pride thinking, I'm not one of those people.

After being diagnosed with depression I longed for an outlet for the sadness, hopelessness, and anger I felt inside. I wanted a new artistic hobby that could help me evolve. After deciding I would like to try photography I knew Instagram might become part of the picture. I logged in again, deleted all of my old images, and changed my name. I wanted this to be a place of artistic expression more than only sharing news.

Most importantly, I deleted everyone I had previously followed and realized it wasn't the tool that created anxiety, it is the use. I can choose who I follow, and who I admire and why. I became more clear on my own life vision and decided to only view those who fall in line with that. Suddenly, every day became an opportunity for inspiration, not envy. I thought, How cute is that, I want to make that, I love the way this is styled!

This lead to another way instagram decreased my depression. I constantly have something beautiful to look for now! I am on the hunt for something lovely everywhere I go. Not only that, but I keep my mind busy on creative aspects like what angle, light, and story will meaning capture the meaning? I get focused on the grid of images and whether the images all together tell the story I want. My focus has become beauty, instead of sadness and anger.

Together these elements created what I always longed for, but didn't feel worthy of – connection. I have made incredible and true friends from all over the globe. They are more than willing to share more than their highlights reel with me. I finally have friends that are attracted by similar things in life like me, and I get so much inspiration from sharing and sometimes creating images with them.

Instagram has helped me shift my focus and help my mind launch creative ideas instead of fears.

3 tips on how to deal with jealousy

1. Compare to someone else. Instead of comparing yourself to others, think of people you admire most and compare someone your jealous of to them. Once you do this you can capture the silliness of comparison, because you can more clearly see how uncomparable each wonderful and beautiful people really are!

2. We are all constantly changing. Even if someone was more X quality than you, we are all changing. Nothing is still. Every moment, body, career, and pleasure is like a river constantly moving. I am not saying to wish ill on others, but realize you are both riding different trains and sometimes you will be staring out the window seeing a beautiful view while they are stopped at the station, and vice versa. Enjoy each others' good moments because all changes and that is part of the adventure!

3. Stop wearing other peoples' perceptions. Sometimes we might not even notice that we are comparing ourselves out of other peoples' values. Maybe your boyfriend said he loves blondes and you have red hair. Subconsciously you may envy certain blondes only because you are taking on his preferences. Forget other peoples' preferences. This life is for you to live and their thoughts have nothing to do with you deep down. This life is for you to love, create, and enjoy your own values!

I hope you have a great week.

Photography by Isiah Perkins

5 Ways to Create a More Beautiful Life

 

“To live content with small means; to seek elegance rather than luxury, and refinement rather than fashion; to be worthy, not respectable, and wealthy, not, rich; to listen to stars and birds, babes and sages, with open heart; to study hard; to think quietly, act frankly, talk gently, await occasions, hurry never; in a word, to let the spiritual, unbidden and unconscious, grow up through the common. this is my symphony.” – William Channing

 

 

1. Let meditation become the beautiful bookends to each day. Practice 10-15 minutes when you wake up and each evening before dinner. You can try YouTube meditations at first if it is too difficult to sit in silence at first. Binaural beats with headphones are great for putting your brainwaves to exact emotional experiences you want. Search binaural beats for: joy, beauty, love, etc.

2. Read and work in elevated spaces. If you want to read for pleasure, or if you have to work on something that you dread, find somewhere inspiring to do so. It could be a luxurious hotel’s cafe, a museum cafe, a university, a garden, or a little park. Make it fun for you, and make it beautiful for you. We subconsciously absorb our environments, so let it be beautiful.

3. If you are not feeling openhearted it is difficult to create and allow beauty into your life. One of the best ways to open up again is through animals. Take a trip to your local zoo, or spend extra time with your pet. Like being in nature, being around such elevated and open animals is very healing and inspiring.

4. Create a personal uniform for days when you aren’t inspired. Mine is black jeans, a white shirt, black boots, and a leather jacket. When I don’t feel great I know I can put this easy set on and become more confident and focus on my day.

5. Collect inspiration everywhere. You can buy magazines and cut the things you love and keep them in a journal. When you flip through you will have an instant wave of inspiration of who you are and what you want. Blogs and Pinterest have a lot to be inspired by, but it’s important to write what inspires you and create and observe tactile images so your brain processes them and manifests them even more.

I wish you beautiful days.

Top by Zara.

Butterfly Effect

“When I suddenly see myself in the depths of the mirror, I take fright. I can scarcely believe that I have limits, that I am outlined and defined. I feel myself to be dispersed in the atmosphere, thinking inside other creatures, living inside things beyond myself. When I suddenly see myself in the mirror, I am not startled because I find myself ugly or beautiful. I discover, in fact, that I possess another quality. When I haven’t looked at myself for some time, I almost forget that I am human, I tend to forget my past, and I find myself with the same deliverance from purpose and conscience as something that is barely alive. I am also surprised to find as I gaze into the pale mirror with open eyes that there is so much in me beyond what is known, so much that remains ever silent.”

Clarice Lispector

I found this completely intact butterfly while walking on my way to class. I also found myself appreciating this beautiful cycle of life and death and beauty we all share.

Classical Inspired Interior

I have been collecting lovely items from antiques stores for two years now. I am always inspired by the 1500s-1800s in particular. All things gold fill my home. I am growing a collection of gold earrings and original oil paintings in gold frames. I have items from Russia, France, South Korea, and here in the United States so far.

All things magical affect me. This small reading candle makes me think of a young girl wandering her castle at night. I truly believe the items you surround yourself with affect you, both consciously and subconsciously. My home is a safe haven of beautiful thoughts for my mind.

Things don't have to be too perfect,or too neat. I like the naturalness of a lived in home. I prefer ease to overly staged photos, art, and interiors. Sometimes it appears to let the soul of the subjects to speak out.

Small Things – Great Love

My mom was talking with her doctor today. He said he preferred working with animals, rather than humans.

“Why? Animals can be cruel too,” she said.

“No, they only are cruel when they are hurt and scared,” he said.

“It’s the same with us.”

Isn’t it the same with us? How many times have we judged others as wrong or bad without pausing with a moment of compassion for what they are going through.

The same day I waited in line to check out from a store for almost twenty minutes. I wondered why the cashier was taking so long. As we got closer, she revealed a swollen left arm and the fact she is going through chemotherapy at the moment. She looked to be in her early 60s. I can’t imagine what that must be like at this age and state of health to work such a job, and yet she still managed to be kind and attentive to me.

Everyone truly has a story we know nothing about, and each is a story worth getting to know.

March Muse: Young Marie Antoinette

Who isn't inspired by a young Marie Antoinette? Incorporating more pieces into the wardrobe that are feminine, yet playful and cheeky, is a way to incarnate her spirit. The idea of bringing back the beauty of previous eras and refreshing them with the air of modern civility (and all the pleasures that brings) is the inspiration for this look.

For the bags Loewe and Miu Miu have playful silhouettes and a refreshed look of the straw bag.

Also by Miu Miu are the fun pineapple necklace, pink sock shoes, and straw inspired sandals.

Maje has a stunning and deep blue jacket that can be worn on colder spring days.

For the dress, Simone Rocha S/S 2017 has perfected the light femininity of a cotton dress look while maintaining the richness of quality fabrics.

The Chloe top is a cheerful shade of yellow with small print that look as if the modern day Marie could wear it to the Petite Trianon today.

Rustic pastel nail polish and adding pastel and gold details to the home can more fully incorporate this look.